explosive moment

I've been zoning out in my production classes. The hot professor gets on my nerves! My crew-mates say random pieces of vital information that I've never heard before - and they claim it was mentioned with special emphasis in class!

So I had my first shoot yesterday. I wasn't excited, not very nervous, like I usually have a tendency to be for big events. I thought to myself, is this what I want to do all my life? Hmm...

Today I rehearsed with my actors. These two brilliant guys who are so comfortable with their bodies and voices. They understand their tools, they play around with them - just really skilled actors. I had them in my mind when I wrote my script. It just felt perfect to watch them carry out the scene. My screenwriting professor gave us a tip about making our characters sound different from our own voice - and that is to cast different people in your head. That is what I had done with these two guys.

But the most perfect happy moment was watching my words come to life. The actors loved the script and said it was an actor's script! I wrote an actor's script! Can you believe that?

We worked on it for an hour. With every run through, the actors saw more and more of my point of view - and admired it! I cannot believe that these words I wrote on paper/laptop - became real words felt by other people - and will one day soon, hopefully, exist on film for a long time to come!

I've realized what brought me to the world of filmmaking was a strong desire to have a voice. And when I hear that voice loud and clear - I am HAPPY! :)