i don't want to blog anymore

Just like I don't want to feed my blog because I don't want to feed myself, just like I'm being cruel to my blog because I'm being cruel to myself - I am making a film on something I strongly disagree with, because I know my opinion will show in every aspect of that. Doesn't make any sense, I know, but it does to me.

So I'm writing now only because I have nothing else to do. I'm bored. I just had a nice big lunch - still enjoying the last bits of the creamy chocolate chocolate cake - that's what it's called. My friend Nam said she will bake a cake this Sunday, after the Sunday mass at the church. I suggested a dark chocolate vodka cake - but she stuck to her idea of a rum and raisin cake - how strange is that - raisins and rum! In the end, we decided to go with a dark chocolate cake with vodka shots on the side! The season of celebration has begun! The end of Lent - and the beginning of my friend Brend's birthday next week. UU is going to India for a week - for a whole other celebration in her family! Yayyy!!!!!!

Aki is still an asshole. I usually can't stay angry at anyone for too long, especially if it's people I don't really care about. I either disconnect completely, or forgive them and keep my distance. This Asshole seems to not fit in either of the categories. And the worst thing is the more I think about all that happened in the past, I realize so many other places where he STOLE MY IDEAS! Those ideas were not crucial to me, and I probably wasn't going to pursue them in the near future, yet they originated in this head of mine, and were vomited out into the fucking world through this bloody big mouth of mine!

So I've been ANNOYING RH randomly with my restless mind. I told him his film is stupid, but he knows what I meant - because I told him! He's been too engrossed in his film, and seems distracted most of the time :( and the worst part is he stopped blogging! And even worse he's stopped being unhealthy with me - so I'm by myself now - and doesn't seem like I'll last too long either. My body is refusing unhealthy things - I never thought that would happen!

My tooth broke yesterday - Evil E's sticky Italian candy broke the filling in my root-canaled tooth. It's okay - doesn't hurt - but will need to waste time at the dentist's when I go back to Delhi!

Just talked to sis after a long time - she's also been off blogging - maybe that's the reason I'm so sad.

Okay, so I should go now - class in 20 minutes. Wish me luck!

P.S. - another reason I'm sad is that no one commented on my post "The Sacred" - I'm really curious to know all your sacred places - so please go back, read, and respond.