So I'm well rested and ready to go. But where?

I cleaned up a lot. BH came back home. Still can't get myself to eat a real meal. Just had some shrimp dumplings. Yumm.. Really want to try making shrimp bengali curry. Actually, really want to start cooking again. Maybe it's just the new term blues. Classes begin tomorrow. Still have to make a proposal for my docu. No hurry. I guess.

Still happy about my hair. Miss RH - will see him tomorrow in class. Looking forward to summer at home.

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About men and hair - well, I'm intrigued with this general obsession of men with women's long hair. Don't think too many men read this, but all of you who do, please help me understand this. I suspect it's a part of gender conditioning, and most men don't know what they really feel about this. Any thoughts?

I've always had a tough time with all my close friends who are completely opposed to the idea of me having really short hair. It's a struggle not only against the general idea of femininity, but mostly against my well-meaning friends who think they know what is best for me. It leads me to other important questions, like do we women really own ourselves? Our bodies? Our lives? Are we in complete control of ourselves? I know that I am not. I struggle with it. It's important for me to know what other women feel about this. Are you aware of not owning yourselves? Are you aware and are okay with it? Are you aware and struggle with yourself/society/family/loved ones?

I'm curious about men too. I generally assume their lives are devoid of all these complications about identity, but I wonder if there is something I don't see. Something so well hidden in the conditioning process that even they don't see it. Will you men help me by thinking about your own life with an open mind for a moment, and give me an honest answer. Tell me - do you own yourselves? Do you own your bodies/actions/opinions? Or do you, too, struggle?

I'll be happy for you if you are fortunate enough to have no such issues, but I will still expect you to see and understand mine.
But if you are in the same boat as me - welcome aboard! It's going to be a fun journey :)