Things are looking Up

This was the title of a really corny film I crewed on last winter, and I always think of it when things are looking up for me :)

Scene 1: After much, much anxiety and running around, I succeed in getting a graduate number for a 5 credit course that I've been taking this quarter! This ensures my much anticipated Spring term in Croatia! Lovely.

Scene 2: Finally, some coherence in the treatment for my film. I'm actually able to get people excited about it now! This guy I ran into today - lets call him guy no. 3 on my list of the coolest men I know - asked me what my film was about. Since we were both sort of rushing in different directions, I gave him a super brief description of it. He asked me the name of the poet guy (my protagonist) twice and made me spell it. Within 2 minutes we were out of each other's sight. I go for my 3 hour class, get home, and discover this email from him. He knew quite a lot about the poet by then, asked me more about the concept for my film, and even mentioned his favorite poem by my poet guy! Now I know what it takes to be a good film producer. He is awesome! I replied to his email and went off for a short shoot. When I got back, he send another email saying that my idea was fantastic, and that he wants to meet me this weekend. I'm excited to see what he has to say - it will be so great having his support for my project. Yayyy!!!

Scene 3: I never knew being a documentary filmmaker involves stalking people until I get a restraining order - never thought my crush stalking experiences in school would ever come in use! I had been waiting for this one guy related to my film to email me back. After three emails over three weeks, I finally get a reply from him asking me for my number so that he can call. Now its been almost two weeks and he hasn't called. I feel like I'm back in time, waiting for my love interest to respond, but this time I'm doing it as a part of my job! That's sort of sick and exciting at the same time. Strange.

Anyway, I noticed that a while back, it was the pregnant season. Everyone around seemed to be expecting. While they are still in expectation, a new season seems to have begun - the BREAK UP season. Within 24 hours, I found out about one that has happened, and one that is in the process. I really don't know how to respond when my friend tells me about her potential break up. I get uncomfortable, just like when I'm confronted with serious ailments, or death. Maybe the problem is that I haven't really been confronted by them, and so I'm ill-equipped. The easy way out for me is that I take on this practical friend role where I say, "If you both are not happy, and not willing to work on the relationship with equal effort, it is not worth it." And that, "A bad relationship is worse than being alone" - because the reason for difficult break ups, forgive me if I'm wrong here, is that they are too lazy to get out of the habit of being together. I am too. It's a difficult thing to do - but I make a choice to stay in, as long as both of us are willing to fix it. I believe that relationships can never be perfect - its like trying to achieve objectivity in a documentary film - it is impossible - but I'm happy as long as we keep trying.

Enough wisdom for the day. Good news is The Band's Visit, and American Graffiti arrived today. I'm going to have a fun night! Adios mis amigos :)